That's what my ex told me today. It will happen. Just wait. Watch it unfold before you. It will happen when you least expect it. Uh-huh. He just told me that he and the guy he's seeing are together already. It was during their weekend getaway that they sealed their commitment to one another. I'm very happy for him. I am really. I know that he deserves to be happy. But I couldn't help but ask myself, when will it happen to me?It has been almost four years that I have been single. Not alone, but single. I've always believed that it took me the first three years to really move on from my last relationship. Now that I am going on my fourth year, I am ready.
I've always been the strong one. I've learned to be fully independent through the years of being single. I've decided that I really don't need anyone to be complete or to be truly happy. But there are times that I admit that I could be happier if there's this special someone who I can turn to in the middle of the day just to bitch about how mundane my tasks at work have become. Or someone to go grocery shopping with and argue which kind of cheese to get (right G?). Or someone to cuddle with on a Sunday afternoon watching Notting Hill for the 897th time, then mock me because I still cry at that one scene where Julia Roberts would say..."After all, I am just a girl standing in front of a boy, asking him to love her."
Mushy.
Sometimes I just have to believe that it will happen...again. That there is that one special someone who will be just the right fit. That when the time comes that we are both ready, it will happen.
Tonight I chose to believe. Tomorrow, I might not.
2 comments:
Yes, right... arguing about cheese brings the relationship to a whole new level. No longer in the realm of wine or bread, or even cologne or clothes but cheese, dammit! And when you find that perfect cheese that you both enjoy, no matter how stinky, flaky, spongy, creamy, rancid, indespicably pungent it may be, you will savor every bit of it... because good cheese, like a good man, is not about being sweet or soft or easy to slice... it's about waking your senses with intoxicating smells and filling your mouth with tastes and textures that you'd keep coming back for more...
I viewed your blog and read the articles...very nice and could related a lot to my life.. I really like the article you made on "It will happen...." I have been on that situation and had also think the same way. Yes we do sometimes believe that we are happy to be single. Living alone in a care free world wherein no one could argue or be there to remind you. But times would always come to my mind that you still need that someone...a longing hidden somehwere....i guess time would just come...but when would that be? Keep on writting ........
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