HALA!

"We all want to fall in love, because that experience makes us feel completely alive. Where every sense is heightened, every motion is magnified, our everyday reality is shattered and we are flying into the heavens. It may only last a moment, an hour, and an afternoon. But that doesn’t diminish its value. Because we are left with memories that we treasure for the rest of our lives."

Welcome Back Old Francis!

So i couldn't sleep last night. He didn't respond to my text messages and he didn't return my call. Yes, im talking about this guy who I just met last Sunday. I was so paranoid that after a few days of seeing each other and being with each other, he was indeed just going to play me. That he would be like the LA boys that i've dated. And then it struck me. Am i becoming the Francis that i used to be when i was with my ex? It seems like i am becoming that person who i absolutely hated. And this is just a few days of getting to know him. Wow. So i stop. I decided to take things very very very slow and just go with the flow of everything. And of course, the fact that I don't have a job yet makes me even more foolish to just worry about all the other things.

so once again, i stop.

Magic

So ive moved to New York on October 11. Sold everything i owned in Los Angeles and left all my friends. Its like when I left the Philippines to move to the United States. The roller coaster of emotions is happening all over again. Its my second week in New York. so far so good. but i still dont have a job and i still dont have an apartment. but things are looking up.

last friday, i believe that was October 20, i got a smile message on my friendster account. friendster is kinda weirding me out considering the numerous friends ive reconnected with over the past years. and now this. he's quite charming and i thought he was cute so i messaged him back. we got to talk on the phone last sunday and i felt we instantly had the connection. we decided to meet that night. we met at toys r us on broadway. i was thinking, of all places toys r us? lol. anyways, he was late. i thought he stood me up. i was thinking, darn, no one flakes out on me. but when i met him, i thought it was worth it.

ollie's chinese restaurant and then therapy lounge. after 2 glasses of pinot grigio, i was drawn into the conversation, his smile and his wit. i went home with him. had the most amazingly long make out session and a full 24 hour first date.

i might be eating my words about my bitter ideas on love, relationships and being able to live alone in this world.

might.

My Send Off Parties in Los Angeles